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I've no idea where to start this post and whether should i even "published" it.

Probably blogging isnt such a "private" thing anymore. It has become a place for pple to "tell" others what they are thinking, and perhaps hope they will "do" something about it. Some will do something about it after reading them, some don't. Some will have no idea who you are talking about, but they "feel" it is talking about them, and they start asking the friends around you isit him/her you mentioned about in your blog. I'm sure many went through this experience before and if you have this "gut feeling" that the post is about you, 80% you are right. So don't bother bugging your frds if the post is "dedicated" to you.

I heard it so many times, seen it with my own eyes a million times, that once a person gets attached, they changed. I dun deny cos i'm a culprit myself. With another person around, priorities changed, lifestyle changed, committment changed, etc. I can't find a single person who is attached and have no difference between his/her singlehood life and couplehood life. If there is no difference, then their partner might as well let him/her return to their singlehood.

I'll be happy for my friends if they found someone to share their life with and am happy with their partner. If i noticed any "unhappiness" and it's caused by the r'ship, and if nothing can be done to make it better, i'll ask them to end it quick. As the chinese saying goes "Chang tong bu ru duan tong". Unless you are married, then it's a different ball game, you can't say "quit" so easily. Every r/ship is a commitment, thus none should play a fool when they are in one. However, if it fails, it's not because you havent done enough, it's just not meant to be.

Usual things friends will say when someone gets attached, "wun have time for us", "will be busy with their partners", "don't have to ask, sure with their partners" things like that. Even me myself said it to key or val sometimes wen i was still single... [guilty as charged =p]. I do say it, but i'm happy when i see them happy. The joy and smile on their face is something money can't buy and friends can't give except their partners. Val, i do get angry with u at times when James is at the top-est priority and u just break promises. But i know i can't put the smile on ur face like James can, and you know all i want is for you to be happy. So even though i'm disappointed, you know i'll always be there for u no matter what. U can go forth and grab ur happiness cos it is the smile i want to see on ur face.

Somehow, it saddens me when i heard or in fact "feel" the disapproval from friends ard me. The look on their face, their "sianerz". Everytime i see it, my mood is gone for the day. I don't wish to get affected by it, guess i failed, esp when it's from you carol. Perhaps you din noticed it, i wish to avoid it, but how can i when it's put across so obviously right infront of me. When it's just me alone, you are just like how you are, chirpy, blurry, just like old times. When it's the 3 of us, there seems to be a wall between us. Probably u feel weird, prob u havent get used to it, prob... it's just too many probs... Are things at such a stage that nothing can be done to it? I dun wish to, if you feel the same, den we should talk... it's been a long time since we had our heart-to-heart talk. I know it'll be awkard in the beginning, but i've taken the first step, the ball is in ur court now =P.

Belle, i've never mentioned i'll stay over-night at June's bday nor have i say anything about not staying over night. And i'm never the one who suggested we stay over at her chalet. I was in a midst of deciding to stay or not to stay and i'll apologise for being indecisive but i'll not apologise for putting aeroplane cos i never say anything about staying or not staying in the first place. You thought that things wun changed much, it hasnt changed much. I'm still around for supper, KTV, exercise trips, "excursion" to zoo/birdpark, other activities. I wun say i'll attend all cos things are definitely different now, but if i can make it, i'll be there. If you still want to be angry with me.. *shrugs*.

And MISS CHUA KE YING, you have been MISSING for the ENTIRE holiday!!! Are you so busy till you have no time for a SMS? What about the BBQ you complained that we don't have time for it?? We should be the one complaining instead =P. Don't you dare to complain when sch starts and everyone else have no time for u k! *grinz* *hugs hugs hugs*

No hidden names, no hidden meanings, just some thought i want to convey.